SO yesterdays coffee drinking highlight for me was finding the Turkish Coffee Pots that we have in Germany here for 10.99 euros! I got the big one which really wasnt what I was 100% sold on getting but…it was 10.99!!!! So now if I have people over I can serve up to 9 people cappuccino haha. WINNING
Yesterday Andrea and I met up with our friend Alex for mexican food. It was so great to have the three of us there and catching over the 2 years of not seeing each other. Its great to see the two of them so happy and the changes they’ve made since then. Especially Alex, right after my last visit she had started a job that was taking up alot of her time. She finally quit a few months ago and I can defiantly tell she has some weight lifted off of her shoulders.
Then Alex took me to the more northern-western area of Paris to this artist district. They were having an open house so you could enter the art studios of the artist and see their work. Sometimes they were in there just doing work. It was really great to see and I was so in love with it. I think Alex wasnt expecting me to get that excited over it but I did. One studio the woman were handing out long rectangular clothes for people to paint on. I forget the name of the city but there is going to a festival there in a few days. So they wanted to take all the painted clothes and attach them to their float. Alex and I painted one and it was alot of fun.
We met up with Andrea and walked around some shopping areas. Then made our way to the Eiffel Tower to have a picnic as the sunset. I met a friend of Alex who is from Southern Italy, really such a hilarious guy. He seriously sounded like Mario or Luigi and talked so much with his hands he was so great. He came and he had a box of Pizza from Pizza Hut. Don’t worry I took a picture of that haha classic moment for me. Then I met one of Andrea’s friends who just came back from studying in NYU and she seems really nice and friendly.
It was a good 2nd to last night. Now I will hopefully get ready and start heading out on my last day here Paris with my girls.
Walking through the really the heart of Paris and passing all these cute cafes along the way. I keep stopping every 5 seconds to take pictures of the font text. I just really love alot of the logo designs or text you see. I may just end up making an album specifically regarding that. However Im not sure how well all of them turned out cause Id try to not stop and take the photo…but just take it as I walk haha.
I am enjoying my time here and seeing everyone! Its been really great to see familiar faces. The weather has been extremely generous as well as the hospitality of my friends here. Andrea has taken good care of me. I have bought a few outfits that I am excited about and are good for the summer. Trying to control myself finding alot of good deals!
Well I am off now to have a Mexi reunion with Andrea and our friend Alex <3
Yesterday I met up with a friend thats been out of town visitng her boyfriend. We went to the lake and brought a bottle of wine, chips and glasses. We just sat there and talked about relationships. It was so great we just talked about everything and it was like being back home. Like talking to a friend Ive known for years, rather than for months. Its one of the things I love about traveling and studying abroad. Meeting new people from a different culture, a different language and be able to connect and share things with them. Its probably the greatest thing in the world to me.
Instead of saying things are broken or aren’t working right I know say: This thing is kaput or this isnt working properly.
Instead of apartment I say flat, but I still say roommate! not flatmate ha.
Instead of saying bye I say tchußi
Instead of saying shit, what the fuck, or asshole I now say Sheiße, was die fook, wanker.
Instead of saying I dont knooooow and nooooo like a true minnesotan, I know say it like an Australian I dont KnOOOooooOOOW and NOOIEAU
Instead of wanting to say yay and clap my hands all the time, I want to say precigs precigs and clap my hands. (precigs-means happy in Latvian)
Instead of saying yeah ok, ok i get it, exactly, correct, for real… I say - achso, alles klar, genau, stimmt, echt
Instead of saying yeah or nah I say jaaaa or neeei
I say Hasi, Schatz, Süße, Süß alot which is just like cute pet names or names of endearment.
This one hasnt gone into full affect but I see it getting out of control..instead of saying yeah I guess so ill be saying I reckon like the ausies. Also probably be saying oh yeah heaps of stuff instead of lots of stuff. haha
I am sure there is more crap I am forgetting however I just realized while writing to an American friend I wrote “Sorry I can’t type properly.” and then after I sent it I was like the hell did I just say. Also then when i read it and heard it in my head its always in a British or Australian accent. Messed up. Farewell American Language and hello strange new Erasmus language from the fall 2010-spring 2011.
Its amazing how stupid happy I am right now, and I don’t want that feeling to go away. Im falling more and more in love with my friends here. I feel so grateful for their support and their care free personalities they have shown me. I love how we can just laugh and come up with the most ridiculous stories. All I know is I wouldn’t be this stupid happy without them <3
“And lastly from that period I remember riding in a taxi one afternoon between very tall buildings under a mauve and rosy sky; I began to bawl because I had everything I wanted and knew I would never be so happy again.”—F. Scott Fitzgerald’s “The Crack-Up” (via fuckyeahfitzgerald)
Yesterday I went to Weimer with german students and Erasmus students. I am not sure what more to say except it was just alot of fun. Weimer is really beautiful and its strange to think that its smaller than Hildesheim. I mean I dont know what more to say about this place except hoping that the photos I took do it some kind of justice. I really enjoy my time with the new Erasmus students from this semester and sad we only had a semester together. Im also ever so grateful for the German friends Ive made and they are just so great. Ah. I am just so fucking happy.
“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”—Mark Twain (via johnakajrow)
“He talked a lot about the past, and I gathered that he wanted to recover something, some idea of himself perhaps, that had gone into loving Daisy. His life had been confused and disordered since then, but if he could once return to a certain starting place and go over it all slowly, he could find out what that thing was…”—
“You don’t think there’s any chance of Gwendolyn becoming like her mother in about 150 years, do you Algy?"-Jack
“My dear fellow, all women become like their mothers, that’s their tragedy. No man does, and that’s his.”-Algy
“Well, its perfectly phrased and is about as true as any observation of civilized life should be.” -Algy”— The Importance of being Earnest
So my friend skype called me today and we got to talk for over 2hrs. Although the doorbell would keep ringing from neighbors or friends coming to the door to show their support. I was glad I was able to make her laugh and after she did she said “Oh god I needed that.”. I could hear her when she answered the door the first time and the awkward conversation of people not knowing what to say. I mean its really hard to be on either side of that door. There is so much you want to do to help that person feel better yet knowing there isnt a whole lot you could do. However offering anything you can do to know you are there. Meanwhile you appreciate the offer but all you want to say is well bring them back. However you bite your tongue because you know they cant yet that’s all you want to say in response. So you start feeling the numbness enter your body and into your brain. So before you know it you realize a few seconds have gone by without a response. So you manage to get out a “….yeah…thanks…”. However the thanks doesn’t sound sincere buts its because you are in numb brain mode.
I think one of the worst parts about knowing when you open that door is the look you are about to get. That look of sadness and sympathy they give you. I dont really know how to explain it, I think its something you get when you clearly lost someone important to you. I could never look people in the eye. Which is why I learned to not really bring up my mom being dead alot. I learned to bring her up so it could sound like my mom was alive like yeah my mom taught me how to do this or that. Eventually though the moment does presume itself to mention the death of my mom. Then comes the look, even to this day. I mean its a facial reaction that cant be helped when you discover someone you like as a person has had a tragedy in their life. I think why Im uncomfortable with the look comes from when she was sick and people knew she was gonna die. They looked at me like oooh you poor girl and during those times I shut that stuff out. I didnt want anyone to feel sorry for me because then I knew women would try and mother me. And the thing was they weren’t my mom. So I let very few women in my life because I had already felt like I had no control over my life anyways from losing my mom. I didnt want someone to just force themselves on me, and I realized I was about to mature faster than most girls my age.
Well I see the same thing happening for Christina but a man’s reaction isn’t so much to come rushing in and nurturing kids that aren’t theirs. However she is gonna get the looks and people wanting to fill in that void. I mean there isnt anything wrong with it but its overwhelming because everyone wants to. Then you kind of ending up shutting people out in away, I know I’m guilty of that.
However now because of losing my mom I have been able to be there for others. Its like a free pass of not getting shut out. Cause they all think Charlinda knows what this feels like and I do. I know what they need is someone to get them but also to distract them. So it made me happy when as soon as Christina appeared on skype she called me and one of the first things she said was “Thank God I have you.”.
To my dear friend who had to lose someone too soon today.
When tomorrow starts without me And I’m not there to see; If the sun should rise and find your eyes All filled with tears for me. I wish so much you wouldn’t cry The way you did today; While thinking of the many things We didn’t get to say.
I know how much you love me As much as I love you; And each time that you think of me, I know you’ll miss me too. But when tomorrow starts without me Please try to understand, That an angel came and called my name And took me by the hand.
She said my place was ready In heaven far above; And that I’d have to leave behind, All those I dearly love. But as I turned to walk away, A tear fell from my eye; For all my life, I’d always thought I didn’t want to die.
I had so much to live for, So much yet to do; It seemed almost impossible, That I was leaving you. I thought of all the yesterdays, The good ones and the bad; I thought of all the love we shared, And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday Just even for awhile, I’d say goodbye and kiss you And maybe see you smile. But then I fully realized That this could never be; For emptiness and memories Would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things I might miss come tomorrow; I thought of you, and when I did, My heart was filled with sorrow. But when I walked through heaven’s gates I felt so much at home; When God looked down and smiled at me From His great golden throne.
He said, “This is eternity And all I’ve promised you; Today your life on earth is past, But here it all starts anew.” “I promise no tomorrow, But today will always last; And since each day’s the same day, There’s no longing for the past.” “But you have been so faithful, So trusting and so true; Though at times you did do things, You knew you shouldn’t do.” “But you have been forgiven And now at last you’re free; So won’t you take my hand And share my life with me?”
So when tomorrow starts without me, Don’t think we’re far apart For every time you think of me, I’m right here in your heart.