August 2011
31 posts
This is my last night in Germany and really…this sucks. Germany really took me by surprise a sneaky love affair. Its like I didnt even know it and all of a sudden bam I am in love. Which is actually appropriate if you know anything about how slowly a relationship develops here with the opposite sex. However thats how you know its real, when someone really cares they take their time and dont rush it. Germany I thought when i first got here….ok I will like it but it wont be like when I left Mexico. Im still correct its not like when I left Mexico. Mexico I felt hard for right away and just instantly went native. Germany you have to warm up to but when you do…its like something that could last. I feel like the way I talk about Germany is like a relationship. So when I had to go to the city hall to be unregistered I really just felt like going home and listening to break up songs. Like the I love you but I have to move on with my life kind of sad depressing songs. Tonight I had a few drinks with Peet, Natascha and Alicja (Alicja is from Poland and had left and much to my surprise she was already back just for work however I really love this girl so I was so happy she was back in town :-) to say hello and goodbye to one more time.). Then I met to say goodbye quickly to another person Adrian who I am close with and then I walked home alone and seriously I had that feeling like your heart is breaking from a break up. Some how its not what you want to do but you know you need to do…and its gonna have to end even if you dont want it to…yet you sense it and know it has to. Which is why I think this song I upload next is very appropriate by Brandy.
Have you ever loved someone so much that it makes you cry
Have you ever need something so bad you cant sleep at night
have you ever…
have you ever…
It feels so strange to be happy about something in your life then at the same time there is a layer of being sad about it too. It kind of sucks to be sad to be happy.
